hi hi   incase i scared u with what i sms u ... this is what the Lord has been telling me which i submit to u for prayer and working out by faith n His grace!   1) second time round is always redemption when God created the universe, He told adam n eve to be FRUITFUL N MULTIPLY ... along the way, eve and her offspring sinned and so God eventually had to wipe out the world through a 40 day rain ... scary thing is that prior to this, mankind had never even saw rain before ... so its something completely new new new!  dare we believe that God is still in the business of doing something new ...   when noah finally got out of the boat, the Lord gave him the same command -  be FRUITFUL N MULTIPLY!  same thing but in a completely new place and environment   2) mind turmoil in the ark i wondered few days ago what noah's mind must be struggling with (something i am now struggling with ...) when i get out of this ark, will i see dead bodies floating ... will i see any survivors ... where will i end up and what will the earth now look like ... i think these are the questions that u and i now have in our heads ... do we dare to let go of the past and LET GOD DO WHATEVER HE WANTS TO ... yet, after noah got out of the boat, it was something totally NEW!!!!! lonely but new ... but i guess the one hundred odd days in the boat could have helped him gel with his family and animals so perhaps this is why it had to take so long for the water to dry up ... who really knows except, i think, if i were him, some of the questions while building the ark wld be - shoots, is this really the God i thought i knew ... will He do it to me next time i misbehave ... and i dont quite like this restoration ...i guess the Lord knows so the Lord told gave him the rainbow in the cloud incidentially that's my name ... to assure him that He is a God of redemption and not a destroyer ...  i think He wanted noah n gang to see Him afresh ...He wanted them to see Him as who He really is - a God that restores; a God of love   3) flesh vs the spirit have we become so pathetic that now we follow our flesh (ishmael) and now no longer trust the Spirit ... someone told me lately - let go and give up completely ... i fear so much cos i think if i let go completely, then i will lose my idols ... the very thing i hold onto with all my life ... yet, as i reflect, isnt this what is controlling my life .... isnt this what is causing me to stumble and fall ... isnt this what people are using against me ... i pray that the Lord will let me have it after i get my breakthrough but ... i think i am so weird cos when i get my breakthrough, why would i want these things that cause me to fall all the time ... surely God has something bigger and better for me ... its called HIMSELF ;)  it's called HIS LOVE ... but i am so afraid cos i have now come to worship the flesh rather than the Lord God Almighty!   the second time round is abt redemption and returning to our first love ... how ... Janet B, a prophetess told me - simply pick up yr mat and walk ... be wholehearted ... i guess something without faith, its impossible ... so i think with whatever mustard seed faith we have, we just bash our way through ... its so small but its all we have and that's enough!   4) recovery vs returning no recovery is truly possible cos its leaning on our securities except a returning to our first love where we let go of all control and ways of men but to jump into the arms of love ... do we dare ... i dont know ... i am so afraid that the Lord will give me something i dont like ... of course God knows what's best for me - but because my concept of God is that He wants things His way so dare i believe its truly the best for me ... maybe returning means learning again who this God we claim we love really is ... maybe its relearning that He is not as complicated as what people make Him out to be ... and maybe its knowing knowing knowing in our hearts that people may betray us but He never will so He is trustworthy ...   much love me