my neighbour wrote to me and told me that 16 nov 2007, everyone felt the joy of the Lord in the place ... strangely, that was one of the saddest day of my life! the Lord showed me a type of what aon will become (except it will not be christian entertainment but worship ascending to the throne nite and day ... and yes, sy and min will be part of the team ...and haha ME too!!!!!) yet, because of what someone told me the day before, i wondered if the Lord would take it back and pass it onto someone else to build it ...
i told sy and min that if i had had to let it go without seeing this, my heart would probably not hurt so much ... yet, because this was what i lived for, to see a place with a company of believers worshipping Jesus 24 7, i left the place with such a broken heart that bitterness and pain crept in ... i left the place resenting the church of God and perhaps being very mad at God ...
yesterday when min released the song - pass it on at the mica conference, my heart got healed... the Lord reminded me that kindness was the healing balm for restoration ... that even as He showed me kindness, my i show kindness to others ... that the joy of the Lord was not in seeing Him meet my expectations but in knowing and loving Him even when it hurts ...
i dont know where the Lord will take aon ...
i believe He will restore us by the people i least expect (the Lord sent a homeless man to help us for the 16 nov party to rearrange the furniture cos He knew that min and i were very very tired plus sister eadweena texted to say that i neednt pay for the help that her centre gave the day before).
i believe that He will do something so grand that all i will be able to say is THANK YOU JESUS ... so Lord, i tell you today that i truly believe and desire that you restore aon ... that you recreate us to be the worship centre you have called us to be... that truly Lord, we will rebuild the tabernacle of david - cos david's army was the desperate, destitute and depressed!
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