When Susan walked in on Sunday, she looked so different that I cried. I wasn't sure why I cried ... Perhaps it was her sari, perhaps just the new fragrance she carried, I am not sure. But I know my eyes couldn't leave her and I kept weeping!

She asked me if this was the first time we've seen a baptism n I replied no but you are this place's first fruit I think - meaning first night lady to get baptized. I didn't explain all these details except to tell her that I was really glad to meet her and to be her friend

She smiled back at me and said I don't quite understand but I guess it doesn't quite matter.. Glad you are happy

Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall see God .. I saw God in Susan on Sunday. I saw God in Susan again today.. Her pure and simple heart makes christianity approachable n real

Viviene - action for aids

Marilyn n Gillian from Healthserve n I went to check out this place n I was v touched by the lady running it.

I don't think she is a believer but ha ha like me, she is a revolutionist (blame it on my grand uncle) that loves the poor n oppressed.. Except hers is training from young while mine is grace of God cos I desire with all my heart to have His heart!

I was so touched by what she shared that I SMS her to find out what motivated her n also took the opportunity to share with her why I do what I do - which I honestly told her that it's cos Jesus loved the poor n oppressed n I am desperate for Him..

Please pray for Viviene that the Lord will save her, if she is not already a believer n please pray that like Viviene, when people talk to me, they will leave my presence wanting more of what I have.. That they will go home very captivated not by me but by the One behind my actions ...she is so simple that I probably won't remember her on the streets.. But I think I will always remember the aura she carried!

Shirley

Heart verus Head

Lately the Lord has been telling me a lot on this... Today I met a lady who does the same type of thing as me except her end goal is to get the night ladies to wear condoms so as to prevent Hiv while my end goal is to share my Bridegroom King Jesus witg them ..(ha ha )

Yet as I listen to her share her stories, I feel like I can connect with her .. In fact, I even think of keeping in touch with her cos I feel she can and will inspire me to press in and press on ...

Don't know if she knows Jesus but days who God can't use anyone!

my rights will soon be gone!

lately so many people have been bringing the subject of gay marriages up ... its quite scary cos the face of the world can change within ten years meaning that in America, soon the kids will learn in school that its natural for people of same gender to fall in love and get married...  yet the church remains voiceless until we ourselves are void of worshipping the creature vs the Creator, sexual immorality, etc ...   i look at my own condition, the fear of men i struggle with etc and i realise perhaps this is why i cannot make an impact as yet into the situation ... perhaps this season of grace, the Lord truly needs to put in me a fear of Him and to show me my true condition as the chief of all sinners so that from this position, then only may i rise up with authority, grace and love to speak into their lives and to get them to turn around.  Cos its when i know that i too am a sinner saved by grace, then when i speak, i will do it with compassion and authority!   i have nothing against the gays and lesbian.  infact, i love them.  i love them enough to want them to return to God ... i care for them and i still care for my lesbian and gay friends.  but i guess i desire to love Jesus and His Word more.  this is why i confess that i judge myself too... i pray too that my heart will be pure and i will not be one of those that struggle with the same roots ie idolatry, etc but with perhaps different expressions!    Heal my heart and make it clean Open up my eyes to the things unseen Show me how to love. like You have loved me Break my heart for what breaks Yours Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause As I walk from earth into eternity   Brooke Fraser (Hillsongs Publishing)

Heal my heart and make it clean Open up my eyes to the things unseen Show me how to love like You have loved me Break my heart for what breaks Yours Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause As I walk from earth into eternity   Brooke Fraser (Hillsongs Publishing)   I came to Geylang to find The King; instead I found the kingdom which I dont quite like simply cos the kingdom didnt come with the King!   Is this perhaps what it means that I win the whole world but lose my soul?  Is this what perhaps it means that the kingdom doesnt really bring me joy, only The King would ... only The King can ... only The King will ...   I am reminded of the song - I started a joke, that caused the whole world laughing ... yet now, i feel I have become the joke ... I boasted about a sold out life that would live only for Jesus; yet, now I wonder yet again if this is possible - perhaps what XJ's blog says is right - detachment and freedom ... do I dare to walk this journey of leaving everything to find The King ... I think I really have no choice ... I think the most frightening part is that it comes with a cost - and the cost is called true love ... unconditional love!  A LOVE THAT DESIRES TO LAY DOWN EVERYTHING ... hmmm, herein lies the problem!

Head or Heart

Chloe will be having her art exhibition to raise funds for Spider's church in the Philippines.. The pictures below .. She told me that the pink painting on the left which represents kindness was done from the head so it took only half hour. Pretty but easy! The one on the right representing love however took much longer... It took six hours cos it was from the heart! It was much harder! Isn't this what it's all about .. Heart or head! No wonder it's easier to do acts of kindness than love. No wonder it's easier to be involved in a ministry than love people ... Yet the Son of Man came not to build a kingdom but to die for you n I. He chose His heart cos His head would have said we are not worth it!

Egypt

I want to go backwards - but not to Egypt but to Jesus! I miss Him but I am lost. I don't really know how to make my way back cos Egypt has now entered my protected world What does someone do when he / she has steered off course .. I don't really know except I hear my spirit say in my weakness He is strong .. I daren't trust my instincts anymore cos I have stumbled away .. But I guess somewhere at the back of my mind I think if I wait , He is going to come n He will save me from my miry clay .. I guess I ask Jesus if possible make this day swift cos I am afraid that I will drift away from You rather than fall into Your arms of love. Someone told me recently that when u jump off the plane, you jump. I am trying to jump except my two hands are still clinging onto Egypt.. My fears suddenly seem bigger than life itself ...  pry open my control n fears n assure me by Your love and joy... I know in my head that when I finally jump I am going to jump into life n love .. That me n my next generations will reap what I sow ... yet I struggle ... am i facing my humanity?  I guess if there is one thing I have to ask of the Lord, the one thing I ask is that He will give me grace to finish the race well so that my generations and I will hear the Lord say 'Well done, my good and faithful servant, you have truly run the race and fought well as my Warrior Bride!"